I am number one on both lists, the overall list and the singles' list. And I am rejoicing, but at the same time, it is lonely up here.
The facts are that I will probably be #1 for a few more weeks, maybe months (hopefully not months). In basketball, this would be great, to be #1; I would rule the court. In adoption world though, it does mean that I am closer to knowing my daughter and getting her home. At the same time, it means I will need to travel twice if I get my referral after May 1, which I most likely will.
The emotional side is a little more jumbled and complex. I do want to travel for court, I will get to see my daughter then. I do not want to travel for court, I will leave Levi and not be able to come home with my daughter until later. I am excited for all of the other babies and children that have been referred to families. I am sad for me, Levi, and my daughter; that we continue to wait for each other; I think she is already waiting for us. I am so happy to be closer to knowing who this sweet babe is. I am struggling with the emotions that come with this wait. I realize that I have been waiting such a short time...so so so short compared to some. I sorrow at the fact that I have been skipped over due to being single. (By the way, single adoptive moms are great! I know other parents are great too, but I am partial to single adoptive moms; they are steadfast, dedicated, and lovely. That's right, lovely. I am proud to be one.)
So that is where I am right now, at the top. #1.
On a side note; for all of those that know adoption jargon, my I-171H arrived yesterday. With Levi's adoption, I waited three long months for this! This time it took two weeks from my fingerprinting appointment. Amazing!
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#1!!! That's so exciting!!!!
Oh wow, you're number one!!!!! :) This is so exciting, even if it may be a few more weeks (hopefully not months!). I pray you get your referral before May 1.. wouldn't that be a treat? But I know that God will bless you and your family with this adoption no matter when your referral comes.
That's awesome about your I-171H... I guess it really IS time for your referral. :)
Wow! I remember the feeling of being at the top. That's when the first wait becomes crazy. You start to stalk the agency. I too am partial to single adoptive moms. I feel like we are kin folk even though we have never met. Hang in there! Wonderful news about the I-171H
Yay for you 171!!! Praying for you as you wait. Praying for the baby girl waiting to know her Mama!
Yay! #1. I'm praying that this singles stuff goes by faster than fast!!
Yay for single adoptive moms!!! I am so excited to possibly become one someday.
You are in my thoughts and prayers daily....this is a hard long journey that WILL lead you to your daughter.
Let us all pray that you get that life changing call very soon!
Love you all!
Yeah for single moms!!! I agree they are LOVELY women!! :)
We are so excited that you're #1 on the list and we are praying like crazy for you to get a referral before May 1st. We serve an amazing God. I'm so excited to see what beautiful little girl he picks out for you!!
We love you like crazy!
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